Pain, Pain Go Away...

As anyone who struggles knows, there are the good days and the tricky days. Sleep disorders, returning from a stroke, damage to your body or any pain related illness sufferer knows this and I do too. I had a pain day yesterday when, I swear, my ribs and my hips were rubbing together (that 2.5 inch height loss was all in the lower torso my sweeties). So I let myself take it easy and I had a good cry.

When I'm in worse pain, I sometimes get a negative thought loop that I have to manage and it goes like this: "I'm hurting, I didn't sleep, it will be like this forever, my life will degrade until there's no more joy left and then I'll die." It's all fear-based and it's very intense so I have to stop it because it's not healthy for me. I get scared sometimes that doctors won't offer help, in the form of surgery, because I'm a stage 4. Now, how do you fix a negative thinking loop?

You take a deep breath, you say to yourself in a sweet voice that "remember who we are Cailey, we're a hard worker and will never stop trying, that alone is enough and other people will help us because we will convince them too, this pain is fleeting and won't be like this forever, there are good things in store for us."

I think that the most important friendship in your life is with yourself and your mind-voice or thoughts are part of that relationship. I'm sometimes horrified by how mean people are to themselves. Like Elle has told me things that her mind voice says to her and she should have a serious talk with it. I wouldn't date a boy who was mean to me and I won't be best friends with a loop of thoughts that aren't positive. Please, talk sweetly to yourself today, massage your own feet and remember who the boss is, it's you.

Love,
 Cailey

p.s. I'm drinking Kale, Apple, Strawberry, Celery and Honeydew slurry today, yum.
p.p.s. What a lovely song, let this inspire you.