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April 2, 2013

No Surgery Day

My friend Lys Lam asked me if surgery was still on today and the answer is no. I forgot to tell you guys but I called last week and reminded my oncology team to cancel it. If it had gone through then it would have delayed my chemo schedule, possibly allowing my liver tumours to grow. I don't want to play around with the liver tumours because your liver actually does a very important job in your body. The surgery is still available to me and I may do it eventually as I'll always have a lot of scar tissue in my left breast and on the mammogram, leftie, appears to have heaps of micro calcifications (which are sometimes pre-cancerous growths). In my dreams, I have NEC and then I can elect to have both breasts done together so they'll look adorably symmetrical. Dream big I say.

My hair has been slowly falling out since last Thursday and now it's hit full steam. I let it fall out as it wanted to and avoided the hair tugging freak-out of last hair loss. This way was much better and allowed me to get used to it gradually however, last night it got to the point that I took the scissors to my own head Elle-style (Elle often cut off key pieces of her hair as a child, just for fun.) Kill always thinks that I look beautiful but I'll admit that my current hair cut is a stretch although I did let him clean up the back after I took this shot :). I took a creepy video of what chemo hair-loss is like but I think that you'll get the shivers. If you watch it, be warned!

Love,
Cail

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I think you're beautiful with or without hair. It's super true what the ubiquitous "they" say: it's what's on the inside that counts. Your personality, personal strength and positivity are what makes you my beautiful friend, not your hair (or lack thereof).
Xoxo
Ps. I will be rubbing said head for good luck next time I see you, and let'sseeeach other soon, yes?
Kayla

Anonymous said...

Also, whoa stupid forgot to press space!
K

Anonymous said...

You are gorgeous with hair, without hair, and anywhere in between! Your positive energy just SHINES through on this blog (I just stumbled across it!) and if that's not healing, I don't know what is! :) Lots of positive vibes from Montreal.

Cail Jordan said...

Thank you from Calgary and from Montreal! What a treat to have an exotic reader of the blog :)

Anonymous said...

Thanks for the shout-out! I think of you often, my friend.
Lys